Sunday, March 18, 2012

Will the real Aunt Flo please stand up?

I hate when AF comes early. She came Friday, and other than the bleeding, I've felt pretty great. Until today. After we came home from bowling, I had to help DH with the broken mower, and I just started getting really cranky. I went to wash my hands at the sink, and as I was leaning against the sink, it felt like when a cat sprints across the room to one end and back, like twice. (only vertical) Or like something swimming loops.  Then, I started getting a sensation like a root had been pulled, and now semi-bad to bad cramps. 

Here are some of the AF/IPS symptoms that just flared up in the last hour or two since that happened:

  • no appetite AND an empty feeling.
  • Slightly nauseous. Sometimes I have the feeling like I'll gag, in the back of my throat.
  • A sudden spike in my sense of smell
    • I opened the fridge and was thinking there is something ROTTEN in here---five minutes ago I didn't notice it then!
  • Cranky/Moody
  • Fatigue
  • Throbbing, sore nips--not just sore to the touch, but radiating a bruised feeling.
But I've been bleeding for 2-3 days now. And, it's been more flow than usual---WTF! I really think it is from AF coming early. Because today would have been the day she started if things had been regular. Ugggggghhhh. Yuck!

And yet.....

The insane, crazy, obsessed TTCer in me (who I managed to keep mute for the first hour) sparked the idea that sudden onset of pregnancy symptoms may mean that I AM pregnant. But if I am, that would suck, because I've been bleeding WAY too much than is normal. I think if I remember that thought when the idea of it being IB hits, I might be able to find some peace instead of obsessing about the inevitable BFNs. Because as much as I want to be pregnant, I also would not want to miscarry again. I'm torn. 


Maria said...

Did you test? And if it makes you feel any better, I am known to test after bleeding too because of the symptoms feel just like a pregnancy. In fact, I am pretty sure AF will start in the next 24 hours due to my temp drop but I am feeling nauseated, crampy, bloated, and my BBs are achey. All what I felt before my last BFP. I hate how symptoms can mean something one month and nothing at all the next. I hope your mean something! And something sticky at that!!

Melissa said...

I did test, because I'm compulsive. I don't know if I've let many AF's pass without at least one test in over a year.

But, also since Jan 11, I have started this trend of having my PMS symptoms increase after AF starts. So, I'm starting to accept it as another sign AF is here.

Big BFN though.

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