I hate when AF comes early. She came Friday, and other than the bleeding, I've felt pretty great. Until today. After we came home from bowling, I had to help DH with the broken mower, and I just started getting really cranky. I went to wash my hands at the sink, and as I was leaning against the sink, it felt like when a cat sprints across the room to one end and back, like twice. (only vertical) Or like something swimming loops. Then, I started getting a sensation like a root had been pulled, and now semi-bad to bad cramps.
Here are some of the AF/IPS symptoms that just flared up in the last hour or two since that happened:
And yet.....
The insane, crazy, obsessed TTCer in me (who I managed to keep mute for the first hour) sparked the idea that sudden onset of pregnancy symptoms may mean that I AM pregnant. But if I am, that would suck, because I've been bleeding WAY too much than is normal. I think if I remember that thought when the idea of it being IB hits, I might be able to find some peace instead of obsessing about the inevitable BFNs. Because as much as I want to be pregnant, I also would not want to miscarry again. I'm torn.
Here are some of the AF/IPS symptoms that just flared up in the last hour or two since that happened:
- no appetite AND an empty feeling.
- Slightly nauseous. Sometimes I have the feeling like I'll gag, in the back of my throat.
- A sudden spike in my sense of smell
- I opened the fridge and was thinking there is something ROTTEN in here---five minutes ago I didn't notice it then!
- Cranky/Moody
- Fatigue
- Throbbing, sore nips--not just sore to the touch, but radiating a bruised feeling.
And yet.....
The insane, crazy, obsessed TTCer in me (who I managed to keep mute for the first hour) sparked the idea that sudden onset of pregnancy symptoms may mean that I AM pregnant. But if I am, that would suck, because I've been bleeding WAY too much than is normal. I think if I remember that thought when the idea of it being IB hits, I might be able to find some peace instead of obsessing about the inevitable BFNs. Because as much as I want to be pregnant, I also would not want to miscarry again. I'm torn.
2 comments:
Did you test? And if it makes you feel any better, I am known to test after bleeding too because of the symptoms feel just like a pregnancy. In fact, I am pretty sure AF will start in the next 24 hours due to my temp drop but I am feeling nauseated, crampy, bloated, and my BBs are achey. All what I felt before my last BFP. I hate how symptoms can mean something one month and nothing at all the next. I hope your mean something! And something sticky at that!!
I did test, because I'm compulsive. I don't know if I've let many AF's pass without at least one test in over a year.
But, also since Jan 11, I have started this trend of having my PMS symptoms increase after AF starts. So, I'm starting to accept it as another sign AF is here.
Big BFN though.
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