Current cycle status and vitamin regimen

So, since I am not charting, OPKing, or doing really anything to track my cycle most of this is a guesstimate. I would say the only thing I am really doing is marking when my period arrives on my phone's calendar and when it is projected. Since I tend toward 30 day cycles, I am estimating to get my period this cycle on 11/25/11--Thanksgiving, AGAIN. I only hope that it is much less painful than last Thanksgivings. Still, I am about 4 days away from my expected period--still no spotting, but I could still get it as close as 2 days before.

I really am trying not to obsess about my cycles, but when my BBs hurt so much, and I know that I've ovulated....I can't help but wait and wonder. I only keep track of when to expect my period so I can know if it is late. I try not to obsess about whether or not I am...I tend to despair that I will never get pregnant naturally.  I did have some spotting about a week ago for 2-3 days..not much...could have been O-spotting. Time will tell. 

I'm also out of supplements. I need to get my Royal Jelly, B-Complex and Folic Acid replaced. I've been out for awhile. Other than that I'm going back on my Melaleuca Vitality 4 vitamins since when I added that to my regimen last time I had such a long luteal phase. So I really believe in those. 

Hopefully I'll be able to get some soon. 

It just makes no sense!!!!

Ok, I know logically that those temps were likely fever temps and not related to O. I also know that if you somewhat disregard my chart before, oh, CD19 that it looks like the perfect O chart. Nice steady rise after a low dip. Also my CM and CP info more closely correlates.

But, I haven't often experienced mittleschmerz, but what I know about it is

1. It usually occurs BEFORE a woman ovulates
2. It last 2 days max...I think most information I read says it lasts for a few hours at most.

My frustration comes from having almost daily ovary pain (mostly on the left) for the last three days. I don't notice it ALL of the time, but especially at night. It just doesn't make sense. Plus, isn't most O spotting BEFORE O too? Why would I have O spotting after O??

This is just my mind messing with me giving me that kernel of hope that I am 8DPO and that this is some kind of implantation feeling and the bleeding was implantation spotting...and so on and so forth.

I know I'm supposed to be waiting. I know it's a crazy dream. But I also know I'll be slightly disappointed when AF shows this month.

Implantation or AF??

So, yesterday my temp dropped down to coverline and I told myself not to worry, because it's just one low temp. Today, my temp is now almost down to where it was when I O'd.

I decided to actually check my CP and CM today. My CP is low, medium and open. I couldn't really tell about the CM because we DTD last night, so I'm thinking it's semen. However, there was bright red spotting.

I'm having a bad feeling that AF is on her way. I'm having cramps, but I've BEEN having cramps b/c of my UTI or whatever urinary thing I have.

Also, my nips are KILLING me...just throbbing and painful. Also, I've been having somewhat pronounced veins, but this morning I even saw veins in my left bb (which is much larger than my right bb). And now the sides of my bb are sore....that's NEVER happened. My underarms are sore too.

I just don't think I'd see an INCREASE in symptoms if AF was coming right? I know she's a right evil witch, but really? I also think since my cervix is lower and we DTD that maybe the spotting is cervix irritation?

Plus, I haven't O'd so I have NO idea what my LP is. I really don't want the problem of a short LP. 9DPO is waaaay too short.

Please God, let this be implantation or at least just an estrogen surge and let my LP be longer!!