Thursday, September 23, 2010

It just makes no sense!!!!

Ok, I know logically that those temps were likely fever temps and not related to O. I also know that if you somewhat disregard my chart before, oh, CD19 that it looks like the perfect O chart. Nice steady rise after a low dip. Also my CM and CP info more closely correlates.

But, I haven't often experienced mittleschmerz, but what I know about it is

  1. It usually occurs BEFORE a woman ovulates
  2. It last 2 days max...I think most information I read says it lasts for a few hours at most.
My frustration comes from having almost daily ovary pain (mostly on the left) for the last three days. I don't notice it ALL of the time, but especially at night. It just doesn't make sense. Plus, isn't most O spotting BEFORE O too? Why would I have O spotting after O??

This is just my mind messing with me giving me that kernel of hope that I am 8DPO and that this is some kind of implantation feeling and the bleeding was implantation spotting...and so on and so forth.

I know I'm supposed to be waiting. I know it's a crazy dream. But I also know I'll be slightly disappointed when AF shows this month.


Ashleigh said...

I'm sorry, I did the same thing to myself last month. Not knowing when or if I ovulated made me think ANYTHING was possible.
The O pains are strange, but I had weird twinges all over my lower abdomen last cycle, and I'm wondering now if it was psychological on my part?? They say the mind is an amazing can trick you into thinking you are having pain, because you want to so bad.
Not saying you are, but just saying that I was. I was frustrated and wondering too, then very very disappointed when AF came.
I hope something is clarifying for you soon so you can stop wondering!

Melissa said...

Thank you Ashleigh :) I will acknowledge that there are times that I want to have symptoms sooo much that the pain I feel is mostly in my head. I will say that the abdominal pain started Tuesday when I was in the ER for bronchitis. I was tender on the left side before I even thought I might be ovulating let alone pregnant.

I do know that the mental aspect exacerbates what I feel though. As I sit here typing about it now the pain grows from my left side to all across my abdomen...that can't be right, right? I mean, if I feel it mostly when I think about it, then a lot of it probably is mental. But I think there is some actual physical base, but my mind makes it seem worse than it is.

It's the rough part of TTC...we're so attuned to ANYTHING changing in our bodies that we notice little changes that we might never have felt if we weren't thinking about it.

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