Positive Thinking Challenge #6--Waiting sucks

So, I have a few medical procedures that will be causing me to wait longer. Le sigh. For my GI issues I have an endoscopy and colonoscopy scheduled. I was tempted to cancel the endoscopy, but as it is set for MLK day (which is a work holiday) I will be able to go without missing work.

However, after seeing my cardiologist now he says the pictures from my recent ECHO are unclear and he wants to be sure there has been a change. So NOW I get to have a Cardiac MRI, yay :-(  My favorite (insert sarcasm here).

So, since pregnancy interferes with these procedures (or vice-versa) I definitely need to delay TTC until after the ECHO in February. It's on the 3rd though, so likely this means we can start trying that month!!! Hooray! One more month of waiting!!!

New goals....waiting longer to TTC.

Well, recently at my psychiatrists I realized that after the last 90 days (m/c, knee sprain, sick with flu, bronchitis) that I am no longer as emotionally stable as when I started the summer.

So, I realize that in addition to making sure my heart is in the right condition for pregnancy, I'm going to re-assess my mental health each month to see if I'm prepared for it.

Also, I'm excited about the prospect of losing weight. I think this will help me get my heart in the best condition possible as well. So, whenever I get healthy again (no longer sick with cold/bronchitis) I'm going to start using my Wii Fit, starting at least twice per week.

You might see my Weight loss ticker above with my charts...here it is

As you can see I'm currently at 8 lbs lost. I re-made the goals a few weeks ago. Also, I'm using a newish product called Sensa

 

The way it works is you sprinkle it on your food (salty for your main dishes or savory foods, sweet for desserts, muffins, etc) and then when you smell it (has no smell really) it triggers a reaction in your brain that tells you you're full. I end up eating much less on Sensa and feeling satisfied. I feel like it's training to let me know what my full signals are like. 

Oh, and today, another kick in the pants. I started realizing I was having a pain in my lungs when breathing last night. And I've been using the inhaler the hospital gave me more often. SO, went to my PCP (managed to snag an early morning appt) and now I have a cold.
Grreeeeeeeaaaaaat 

I get it God! No baby-making right now! The baby factory is closed for repairs until further notice!

Finally! CD1 is here!

Whew! Woke up this morning to full flow! After 5 freaking days of SPOTTING!!! Arrrrrrggggh! I HATE LPD!  Well, someone on TMP suggested seeing my doctor. I may have to do that in the next month or so. I just wish my OB had appts on Sat or after work like my PCP can.


That just inspired me to make one. I set it for November 1st---the week before my ECHO. Because I think regardless of whether my Cardiologist suggests WTTC even after ECHO, making sure my cycles are set is most important. Also, I'm freaking sick of 5 days worth of spotting. Plus, not entirely sure AF would've started full force today, but we DTD lastnight/this am. (shrugs)

Well, I also think I'm going to increase my B6 to 200mg...hopefully that will help. That's supposed to be the max. Perhaps I should split some and only take 150mg. I also think that at some point this cycle I stopped taking the B6....when I was sick I felt "what's the point?" and didn't take ANY meds.

Well, we'll see! At least I FINALLY started this cycle. Here's the funny part, if my cycle is about the same amount of days, I'm likely to get AF the weekend before or on the date of my ECHO!

Putting on the Brakes for TTC

I had my annual cardiologist appointment today. After the ECHO, the doctor explained that due to some concerns they would like to have another ECHO done in 6 months. I happened to have the flu today when they did the test.

I asked if he had any concerns about my trying to conceive before the next ECHO. He asked if I could wait until the test to see what the results were. I also explained I was having more frequent heart palpitations. My doctor consulted with another one and they said they could move the Echo to 3 months and also gave me a portable EKG machine to use when I was having concerning symptoms.

So, DH and I have agreed to stop TTCing until we hear the results of test in November.

Until then I'm going to focus on losing some weight, getting some more exercise to be ready for the big day. I probably won't do any testing for ovulation while we're waiting, but will probably still take my pre-natals, B6, Folic Acid and also charting with just temps. Just to track my ovulation and luteal phase length.

I'll keep you posted on any changes.