How to accept the option of living child-free

Obviously, I haven't posted in months. From my last post, I was struggling with the recommendations from my doctors that carrying a pregnancy would endanger my life and processing never being able to parent a child that was my husband's and mine without the use of a surrogate.
Every couple seeking to conceive will have different motivations for doing so. I think for all of us it is based on a primal instinct to reproduce.  I believe the motivations of each couple are important in determining what avenues of achieving parenthood that they  are willing to pursue.

Most couples start with natural means. Some may need to move on to further medical interventions, such as IUI or IVF. These may be needed if the couples main motivation is to carry a child that is genetically theirs and for the mother to carry the pregnancy.

Life is unfair rant...

First, I want to thank everyone for their lovely comments in my last post. I'm still absorbing a lot of this and ignoring it most of the time. But I needed to get some thoughts out.

Since my docs told me with finality that I cannot carry a pregnancy, I've had varying emotions. Most of the time I can manage to not think about it, but the last few days...if I'm not "busy" I sometimes feel this suffocating despair---usually I am able to keep it at bay, but it just leaves me feeling numb. I can't really feel, because if I feel, I will feel too much.